Some days seem to be harder than others to just put one foot in front of the other. I have messed up big and lost a good friend of mine because of running my big mouth. I don't deserve any friends because I get myself into stupid situations where I say the wrong thing to the wrong person and it gets back to them. I don't mean to say bad things, but when everybody talks bad about everyone its hard not to fall into the habit. I don't know if anybody is going to read this, but it feels good to get this out of my head.
I need to learn to stand up for myself and my beliefs and stop letting people influence me with what they believe. I have always seen myself as understanding of others, but I'm starting to see it as I'm lazy and I don't want confrontation of what I'm feeling. I "understand" others because I don't understand myself.
If anybody does read this, I don't mind you telling me what you think. I will try and write more when I'm not busy. Personally I think I need help lol but then again don't we all.
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